i've been researching abt the year 2012 on google. they say that 2012 is the end of the world. and there're these scientist talks abt sunspots killing our source of electricity and stuff. all of these just make me go white and giddy.


haiyer. having lost a friend is horrible enough. haiiyyyyerr. 2012. thats just 3 years from now. im gonna spend these 3 years wisely. i should not spend my afternoons watching spongebob. i should treasure and spend more time with family and friends and khaihan. i thought abt fulfilling one little wish and tts producing little amelia/khaihan. but then again, i wouldnt want my baby to suffer.. so. i'll probably be a mummy after 2012, thats if we're still ard.



hmm. somehow, this blog entry makes me sound like a bimbo.



i dont care.



in this post, i want all of my loved ones to know how much i love and treasure them.



kim khai han. i love you. i love you so much. i've never loved any other boy this much before. i feel really lost w/o you. even though we quarrel quite frequently, i know deep inside me, you're still my beloved bb. no amt of words can sum up my feelings for you. i dont even know why i like you. but loving somebody doesnt need a reason. we discussed about what we have in common. our answer was nothing. i thought abt it.. if it's nothing, this relationship wouldnt have go on for almost 2 years and we wouldnt have enjoyed ourselves so much being tgt doing something or nothing at all.


my family. i've got the best parents and siblings in the world. we are not very well off, but we are living a comfortable life and our house is often filled with laughters and love. i can tell my parents anything in the world. i can tell my mom and dad abt my friends, work, school, thoughts, feelings..... and the best part is that they LISTEN. my siblings too. i know i can depend on them. they are all generous and fun. :)


relatives. i have so many relatives. tts cos my gma has 11 kids. well, if i have to pick only a few, they would definately be, aunty gina, uncle jeffrey and cousin racheal, jermain, shaun, and little ayden and isabelle. you guys are so funny. big big hugs for you guys. i love my granny and ah gong too. it just saddens me to see ah gong getting skinnier and skinnier.


my friends.
i have a number of close friends. in secondary sch, i met lovely sarah and lovely hazel. we are still pretty close now. hazel is like a big sister i look up too. im proud of her cos she stands up for herself :) sarah chan! my dearest sarah. i got a confession to make. sarah, you are my best friend. i can tell you everything in the world. everything!!!
poly friends. honestly, among vanessa, silvia, jasmine... the person i feel most comfortable with is andreas. bb, i want you to know tt between me and andreas, there's totally no weird chemistry between me and him ok. i see him totally as a friend, he's almost like a girl. and he has a nice gf too :) ok anyway, i can talk about girly stuff to him and he totally understands which is really nice. and he totally gets my jokes and when i make jokes on him, he knows its just for the name of fun.


there're many other whom i really treasure.. zoan, vanessa, pps friends, jon, enling tzepin and many more.
haiya. thats it for today. i should learn not to be paranoid. being ignorant is good sometimes. why did mummy show me the newspaper article. damn.

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